APRIL - ALL THINGS NEW

I thought about the month of April and how I remembered it from childhood.  We used to quote a verse about April Showers Bring May Flowers….  April is in Spring and generally Spring began with the rebirth of nature.  Trees, bushes, and plants begin to bud, grass starts growing again, weather patterns change and temps start warming. 

I read on the Internet what is the spiritual meaning of April, “it is often associated with spiritual renewal, new beginnings, and rebirth, drawing parallels to nature's awakening from winter. It is a time for personal growth, reflection, and embracing new opportunities.”

I would agree with that because I remember getting new outfits to wear to church on Easter Sunday.  And the celebration of the Easter Eggs my mom dyed and put in our easter basket with chocolates and marshmallow treats. I like April because of its association with the concept of all thing new.

BUT April is also bittersweet because of my mixed feelings of happiness and sadness.  My husband of 40+ years and my BFF for 42 years transitioned to his eternal life with God in April.  April is now marked by feelings of happiness because I know without a doubt that Mike is living his best life in the best place with the only true God for all of eternity.  I am also happy beyond measure that God blessed me with a faithful, loving, husband who treated me like a Queen. And, I was happy to be his wife and to be by his side until death did part us.

April is also marked by feeling of sadness because I am now living without my BFF and the greatest husband I could ever have imagined.  If you are blessed like I was, and you have 42 years of friendship and beautiful memories stored in your mind and heart, albeit all good things, it doesn’t diminish the hurtful feelings you have because you miss him (or her) soooo very much! 

I am approaching April each year and staying mindful of my blessing to have so much happiness stored in my heart and ease of mind knowing Mike is truly in the best place he could ever be.  It is getting easier to carry these mixed feelings and not turn aside from my new purpose to keeping moving forward in my new normal life.  In fact, anytime and anywhere I go, I can tap into my memories and my heart and recall something good that inspires, and motivates me to keep living my best life every single day!

If you have lost a loved one and you are finding ways to cope with the sorrow you feel having to live without them, would you like to share that with us?  This is a safe, secure, nonjudgmental community space for healing and we would love to hear from you.

God’s Blessings and Love to all who read this post!